Memories and Nightmares: The Girl and the Tower
The Girl and the Tower
My most memorable nightmare is an old one. I think I was 10-11 or something. My parents were divorced, and I missed my dad a lot. I was told that I had to kill a girl, whom I didn't know, or they (someone) would kill my dad. I took a big knife and started to climb the stairs of a very high, round, old tower. It had stonewalls and it was dark and a bit wet inside. It took a long time to climb, every step was so hard. On the top was a wooden door, which I opened and went inside a room. There was a bed there and the girl was sleeping in it. I sitting or standing over her and raised the knife over my head. Just when I moved the knife towards her chest with great force, I realised that the girl was me. I couldn't stop the movement. I woke up just when the knife touched my chest. My mum came running, because I had screamed very loud... I cried for hours, because the feeling was really awful. And I can still feel it, so when I now write about it, I almost start crying again.